What is really wrong with death and suicide?
I mean what is wrong if I am suffering and everything is painful? It is not going away. Why should I have to smell the fall air and the leaves without my wife and son. You smell the leaves and you say that you like it. I smell the leaves and cry because they are not there. I feel the warm sun on my face and cry because they are not there to feel it with. Many other things. Life is all pain and suffering.
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I understand. but you must stick with it.
Stick with pain and suffering?
No, you should kill yourself, did you evaluate my plan for suicide ?
I think its was a good idea , quick and painless
I forget which plan. I must have seen it.
Just take a brompton cocktail.
If you are a doctor you could easily get the supplies.
Not that hard
No I can't get anything, I can't practice any more. They won't let me.
I wonder why....... :roll:
Well I could have but I would have had to take all these drugs, see the psychiatrist, go to NA/AA meetings, have weekly drug tests. And every time you go to the psychiatrist they look at you look you are crazy. I say screw that sh!t.
why would you have to go to NA/AA meeting did you get caught on the job?
Ah my friend. No I did not. But THAT does not matter. You find that out when you are caught. A state medical board will get you even if it is off the job. I always thought differently. But I was wrong. They will sanction you if you get a DWI for example.
But AH no I never ever would do these things while seeing patients. Never. But it does not matter. But my situation was more complex. You see I got all spaced out and was arrested. I then was so whacked out they took me to the hospital and the psychiatrist saw me. He wrote me up as having a drug problem and having other problems (Yeah well sure I did I was spaced out on drugs). So I was caught.
Then I complied with the program and my wife said she was leaving me. This was a year after the episode. Well I got so upset about her leaving that I tried to kill myself with a knife. The neighbor called the cops. The jumped on me and dragged me to jail and then the hospital and the same psychiatrist locked me up and drugged me for 30 days. I was just upset because my wife was leaving me and I loved her so much.
But the psychiatrist at the hospital got all freaked out about suicide and locked me up. Then when he let me out he made me take drugs. It is BS. They are just covering themselves. Because if they do not do anything and I was like crazy and hurt somebody (which I would never do) they can be blamed for doing nothing.
death is like a beutiful flower, but suicide spoils it
It cannot spoil it because once you are dead it does not matter how you died. There is no such thing as God or Karma. You just die. And when a person suffers to die that is NOT a flower. That is horrible. But when someone commits suicide or is killed and they do not suffer it is better.
Hire a professional killer and give him yourself as target .
