Re: tt
twistendunderschizoprenia, please. Maybe, another thing to is I'm scared if they don't like how my muscles feel to them. and so i get tense. It's physical. still got some toning up to do, and then I think I will breathe better with less tension. And the breathing is physical. I'm working with a specialist this week to help with my breathing. A lot of times I get sweaty for no reason if I see a girl I like. Before, i talk to her I start sweating. I never once out of 3 times have finished properly when f@cking. It's a horrible experience. I'm not fat right now, but I don't feel right about my self even though I been taking gpill a little and working out everyday. And so I don't want to hear comments from the girls too and I get tense and can't breathe. I always get comments from the girls. Usually it's good things, like look at these arms. But I don't like any comment from them and so that's one of the reasons I shy away. Also, with my breathing, I can't finish with them. I don't have asthma bad and can go 12 miles a day but I can't breathe with them because in that position, it's very tight and so I tried yoga. But it didn't work that well. I also tried colon cleansing and colonics cuz I thought maybe fecal matter is stuck in my intestine when I f@ck. Oh yeah, I remeber I used to get scared that I would fart or pass some gass when f@cking and so i had to tense those muscles real hard so that I wouldn't fart. But these days after colon cleansing with oxygen pills, I don't have much gass. But even when I masterbate, I am tense. It's just my hand and imagination is doing all the work and so I am the one in control. But if it's a chick doing it, she might not be applying enough force for me to have a reaction. But with my own hands, I can take as much time as I need. I average about 5 times a day, although have done 25 in one night before. That was after getting a dance with Winter from roaring 20's. she was showing me how tall she is. And something about it made me feel awkward and weak and I felt sick. I didn't want to masterbate 25 times that night but I felt weak and ended up giving up and doing it. Scientology would say that it is the reactive mind.
Exactly, it's mental. It's not a PHYSICAL problem. It's your mind causing the physical problems. Read what you just posted. It's your thought process (concerns, worries, fears, etc) that are causing you to tense up and start breathing irregularly. You need to talk to a therapist and try to figure out how to loosen up in these situations.
