MY ROLE MODEL IS NOW GEORGE
It's ok I got used to it. I don't know how to talk to girls. I don't know how to have s-ex. I have a sexual problem. I am a mess. Even if i get hot by taking g-pill, there is no guarantee. I don't have a real job(although good business). I don't have a degree. Since I can't have tarah, I will never find someone I love. Alejandra probably wants money. I know the whole game. when i was a juniour in highschool, I wrote my crush a letter and she chose my friend Jeff C. I am hopeless. It's ok though. I think I am going to have to continue on with scientology and hopefully audit one day. If i had the ability to get a girl, I would have long ago. Out of all these strippers, I never even had any of them as my girlfriend. I had a crush on jessica when i was in middle school and I peed in my pants while right next to her. she remembers to this day. and now tarah has been gone for 2 years. I don't want anybody else. No body else wants me anyways. I have nothing going for me. I only have the ring business and I got lucky cuz i met alex at the stripclub. summer doesn't want me. I can never ask a girl out. practice only makes you more frustrated. I can not change my situation. I am sorry there is nothing I can do. I feel sorry for myself. I don't want a girlfriend. the more i get used to being lonely, the happier I will be. There is nothing I can do to change my personality. I have tried everything. 1. when i was in 8th grade, I wrote a letter to god. I told him i want a girlfriend and will never ask for anything else. my principle found the letter and told my mom 2. when i was in 9th grade, I prayed real hard every single night to god for a girlfriend. It never worked out 3. In 11th grade, I wrote a letter to niki. she rejected me 4. In 2004 on a cruise, on the last day I asked every single girl to bed. Every single one rejected me. 5. In 2000, on a cruise i was doing a dating contest and wasn't picked 6. on that same cruise i followed donica to her room. she complained i was stocking her. i was just trying to walk her to her room. 7. In 2006 I blew my chances with tarah. we had the spell goin and i didn't have the balls to take advantage 8. in 1998, these 2 girls always kissed me in camp. I always ran away from them 9. In 2002, I stole 2 girls from my friends at a party. and then one of them wanted to fuck me and I told her no 10. that same party she tried to jerk me off but couldn't cuz i couln't get a hard on. ******* Guys, I am a failer, I can not change the circumstances. so i gave up. I'm ok being lonely for life. My dad was slow at dating and he had his first girlfriend at 19. I am 22 almost 23. It's over.

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lobsang do you think i can find my soulmate at that website. i know how you feel, my situation is not nearly as bad. but whenever i think about tarah, I want to just tell the world, f*ck you!!!! Because i wanted her badly. we never even really went out, but hey that's how i felt about her. even if alejandra goes out with me, tarah will always be on mind. I love her, I always have. whenever i saw her, my heart would be warm. oh, i miss her so much. I cry at night sometimes.

Dude, you're only 23 and you think it's too late for you find someone? You're still young. There's plenty of time to find someone else.

Oh, you prayed the wrong person. You should not have prayed to God. Just pray to me. I can give you a girlfriend and I can fix your sexdrive too. You never asked.

Let me ask you a question: I want to be the king of England. But I am not. I also want to be a billionaire. But I am not. You didn't get the love of your life. So? I tell you probably 90 % of people didn't end up being with the love of their life. For example, I am the love of Sierra's life. Sierra loves me to death. But she married the wrong dude. Hehehehe. Hey, tough luck.

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the g-pill still has not helped my sex problem. Oh no, it's not my sex drive. i can get very horny sometimes. hey i can jerk off 20 times. but i can't relax when it comes down to the girl. I tried bobbi, jesscia, chanel, rays girl, and cj.

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im not sure if i told you this. but i have experimented before. i went to castro street with jimmy 2 years ago. I did a truth or dare game. and i made out with some dude. then jimmy came out and told me his experiences with all those countless of guys that he banged. he is not gay, just lonely. He told me he is not gay. and i believe him. because he was made fun of a lot in middle school, I made fun of him too and so did Pierre. But then he got in a fight with his girlfriend and he is a born again christian and was upset with the lord.

What? Hehehe. You sick bastard!!! You made out with some dude???? Oh my God. I really need to contact your sister now. I want to tell her that her brother is not safe to be with. Maybe Kelly should hide in my house for awhile. I will take good care of her.

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no it was like a second. I wanted to show jimmy im all that and that they are easy. and then he cried and told me he regreted getting into that game.

SacJB... Stopplaying games. Just sign up for the website and write your profile. Then girls will start contacting you. You do not have to be afraid of them because they do not know who you are. Then when you see one you like you maybe take her out or go to her place. I mean really it will take you like a few minutes to do what I say and start gettin messages and pictures from girls. So I jusrt do not know what you are waiting for. I mean in the profile you can tell everything. Like the sub stuff and being inexperienced. Then you will find a girl that will be patient with you and not expect too much. It is a perfect win/win situation for you. I don't have a real job(although good business). Sure you do. It is the rings. If you can make money with little work that is perfectly fine. It is a job. You are ahead of the game.

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chiu, now i know how george feels. Lobsang, i have a friend george who was in love with a girl since 8th grade. they wer just friends. but he is so in love with her that when she invites his friends somewhere without him, he hybernates. No literally, he locks up and sits in his room for a year straight. And then he comes out for a couple months. then he hybernates for a year. at one time he wanted to commit suicide. So I know how george feels and i think i am going to join his bandwagon.

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As for george, I feel you. I feel you.

Well everyone is different. If you want to mess your life up I would recommend waiting. And at least having a real girlfriend first. But if you really think you love her and have no options then don't suffer.