I think I am going to become an alcoholic and drug addict.
I think sice my life is all ruined I am going to start drinking and taking drugs again. Because I might as well just kill my self with all kinds of drugs and alcohol. It could not be worse than now. Maybe I wil start with vodka and opium. Like get really fu*ked up all day and just let my body shut down.

no, get yourself a cocaine overdose.

Yep, resort to the things that got you in this position to begin with. Great idea. :roll:

Lobsang, I think you need some good rest. Nightmares are an indication that you are physically and emotionally drained, possibly from too much time on the internet or something. Go lay down. Wear the rings and stare at the ceiling.

18 hours of anything will give you nightmares. I started having nightmares about a year and a half ago. Coincidentally that is also when I started playing second life. I use to smile a lot, especially after using the rings. But ever since that game I have an expressionless face, or a look of sheer terror. I play much less now, but the nightmares still bother me some. In a nutshell, second life takes one's real life and scatters it to the four winds.

Well, instead of making your life even worse, you could just not give up and keep trying to make your life better. There ARE solutions out there, you just have to find them. You're taking on too much at one time. Work on one thing at a time. For now, forget the family problem (I don't mean forget them, just put that problem aside for the time being). Figure out a way to work with the IRS to get all that shit straightened out. There HAS to be SOMETHING that can be done. Once that gets figured out, then concentrate on your family. Once you get the shit worked out with the IRS (paying them back, or making payments or whatever), maybe you could move closer to your family. You and your wife still wouldn't be together of course (not that it's impossible, I'm just sayin), but you would be close to your son. I know you said there are "deeper" problems when it comes to the IRS thing, but I don't know what they are. But I'm still sure something can be done. Can you elaborate on what these "deeper" problems are and the consequences?

No no, drinking alcohol is not in accordance with the Shari'a that is also when I started playing second life. Yes, I don't know how you can play that crap, the screenshots alone make me sick. I'm in favor of virtual reality but this is still too primitive and low resolution

Now I am thinking about taking Bromo-Dragonfly. Do you think it would be a good idea?