I saw Sierra today
I asked her for a lap dance. She refused me. Now she doesn't even go on stage anymore due to knee surgery. So she won't be competing for championship this Wed.

If she refused you, it's just further proof she's in love with you.

At least I get to see her from time to time. That's better than actually dating her then later she finds out I am not right for her and dump my asss. Well, she's married anyways so. I think she's happily married. I can tell. Well, at least the husband is a good man.

I wonder if GP has helped her love you as much as she does.

Based on what I see in her reaction, I think she and her husband lost feelings. You ever been with a person you have no feelings for? At first there is feeling. But after awhile you realized that feeling is slimmer and slimmer and one day it's gone. I think I have so much feelings for her because her Michael Jackson protest dance is the most romantic thing I have ever seen in my entire life. If I were a stripper, I would protect my own image and reputation by not dancing to so much Michael Jackson song since everybody thinks he really did molest little boys. Everybody was hating Michael. But Sierra, like a super hero jumped out of no where, kept dancing to Michael's songs until Michael walked out of court a free man. Wow! That's just so romantic. No movie nor novel can top that. Not even Titanic. It's these little things that I see in her which makes me believe she is the best woman you can have.

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well all i can say is she's a tall tall girl! Sac and lob are back! the improved well together sac and lob!

I think she and her husband lost feelings. You ever been with a person you have no feelings for? At first there is feeling. But after awhile you realized that feeling is slimmer and slimmer and one day it's gone. Yeah I know what you mean. It's preferable to grow closer every day. Well I think people are like magnets. Two people can stick together with a moderate amount of power. But if there are other influences, like another man with a stronger attraction, the girl gets pulled away. So I think the key is having the stronger flux. Younger people have this which is why love comes easier for them. Some people, like myself, have always found it hard to love. I have always had a mental blockage with love. I wasn't physically unhealthy, just have a lot of mental fog about things. My mind was/is crowded with other things. The emotion of pure love always seemed out of reach.

Wow I saw her again today. I said hi to her, and she won't even reply back. SacJB said hi to her, she also does not reply. Wow! She means business. She got a husband. She's not joking around anymore.

come on alex, she is just angry because you told here she is in love with you while she is not.

I wonder what Sierra is doing at this time. Probably thinking, how will she ever ditch that husband of hers and get with Alex because based on her reaction, she and her husband have lost feelings.

You are wrong about Sierra. She's thinking how she can prove to me that her will and her heart are made out of metal. She will be loyal and truthful to her husband, even if she fell in love with another man. This is why I love her so much. This is why. She is unbelievably romantic. Watching her is more exciting than watching Titanic. I want her to remain that way. I like it. I don't ask for much. I just hope that when I tip her on stage, she at least give me face and accept my tips and not just leave the stage with my dollars still lying on the stage.

Alex, I think you need to invent a "stop lying to yourself" pill.

All you need is Sierra's heart. Once you have won that you can move on to the next girl. Love is like playing tag. It's a game of ego really. I can't stop thinking of a girl if her arrows are still in me. Jennifer tagged my heart, and I can't go on unless I reciprocate, or tag her back. If I can't make her love me then part of me is lost. I'll feel like a loser a failure for the rest of my life if I can't play the love game effectively. It's like hunting. If one can take down big game they feel a sense of accomplishment. If one gets taken down and then left like a dirty shirt, well that's not what we want.