I need to die. I need to kill myself. How can I?
OK it is pretty obvious to me that I must die. There is not other way. So it is required. So how do I get the guts to do what needs to be done? And how do I do it? So there are two questions. Because there is no hope at all. And I cannot continue suffering and not having my life back. And living like this.

WTF dude? Are you for real?

I dont know you personally man, and i'm not so good with words. But I found some literature here on the internet that I think you should read. Here's the link http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

If you want to die, die as a super hero, take GP so you can have superpowers and fly to the sun and burn.. :wink:

But if you really decide to off yourself, go for carbon monoxide poisoning using the exhaust of your car. Just connect a garden house to the car exhaust and seal it. Place the f*cking hose through the window of your car rev the engine and inhale the fumes. You will go to sleep and die. F*cking painless. Put a live link on the internet so we can have a laugh. Lol

Inhale a bunch of asbestos while wearing the rings so we can see if you get cancer or whether Alex Chiu's magical bullsh*t saves you

I thought about the carbon monoxide. It is just so hard to sit there in the car and wait for it to work. And also I do not really want to scare anybody when they find my body. It is not that easy to do this. But I would never advertise what I did because that is just being theatrical. And I really do not want to upset anybody. Like make myself some martyr or something. Like I hate when people threaten to kill themselves and get all this attention just to make their friends and family feel bad. I respect when somebody just does iy alone with no showing off.

ALEX can also let you die quiclky and with no pain, with his superpower EYE LASER, he will kill you in one shot.. Or ALEX can actually fly you to the moon so you can be at peace ? ALEX can go to PLUTO for a long awaited holiday and take GWEN or SIERRA with him or both.. :D

If you do decide to use a gun, shoot your heart not your head. At least you will look good in a casket. Lol

OK it is pretty obvious to me that I must die. There is not other way. So it is required SO, why must you die ? Why is it required ?

SO, why must you die ? Why is it required ? Well it is required because after 7 years of pain and suffering nothing may be changed. There is no hope at all. None. And a person just cannot go on suffering not having what they need and it is impossible to get it. And additionally I deserve to die. I do not deserve to live.

Ok, so what have you suffered from and what is it that you need ?

Well I cannot get my wife and son back. I cannot get my career back, I cannot live in the rainforest any more. Everything is ruined. There is no reaon to live if you cannot get what you need. I cannot deal with all the shame and guilt over ruining everything with drugs. And I do not take them any more, I made a big mistake and ruined everything with drugs and alcohol. But that was 7 years ago and I have not taken anything for almost 7 years. Not even caffeine. And now I look back and say how stupid I was to throw it all away for such a stuip stupid thing like drugs. Really really stupid. Everything is ruined and gone. It cannot be fixed.

Yeah thats too bad, but you said there is no hope when there actually is, you see, you changed your habbits didn`t you ? so you thought there was hope you could become a better person and you did, so if there was hope for that, then there is hope for you to move on and stop living in the past, look forward to the future. The time will come when you will see your kids again, so you need to wait for that time to come, in the meantime get yourself together and start living a better life..

No I will never see my family again they live too far away. In another land. And I could not bear to look at them and also things are not going to get bettetr. They cannot. It has been almost 7 years and it is getting worse. Sometimes there is no hope in life. People say that there always is but I can tell you that sometimes there is not. I have proven this conclusively. And I am being attacked by the IRS and creditors that I cannot pay back. Becuae in my old job as a doctor I made enough money. And I let my family doen and lost everything. Anbd I know things will never be OK. Never ruin your life if it is good. I am telling you. You cannot go on for years and years in dark pain with not even a simple joy. Np happiness. All pain. And with everything I cannot get my family back and that is the most important thing