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even if i could have any girl i want, I will never love another girl more than that girl Tara from Sac. I am now back to thinking about her every night. I just can't get over it. I am never going to see her again and I always think about her. Even if I could have a billion dollars and be married to charlize theron, I would choose her instead. If I can have the whole entire sac girls or this girl, I would chose her. And I tried to fall in love with her friend too just to make myself feel better. If I could be rich and famous and sexy, I would chose her instead.

That is how you feel now, time helps change,

I can't believe I'm saying this but, BECOME AN ALEX CHIU RESELLER. Sell rings to these people. Make money instead of paying them. All you need is one COS member to get a good result and she will convert other people for you. Even if you do not believe in the rings, at least one person has a good chance of coincidentally getting a good result, and she will be your disciple. Maybe this disciple will even be Tara.

Look, Sac, you're clearly a guy who likes to think about things and I'm going to level with you - some parts of Scientology are good, some parts are very, very bad. I think you're slowly coming to the conclusion that though they helped you, the way they are clearly pressuring and manipulating people t pay so much for their services is wrong. So what do you do? You believe in dianetics but you have issues with the Church and their extortionate prices... There are ways to get dianetics and auditing outside the Church and for Free. Many Scientologists have taken issue with the way the Church is being run and the prices being paid since Miscavige took over. They believe that the Church is corrupt but that the Tech still works. These people run what is known as the Free Zone, and are described by the CoS as "Squirrels". The Church goes after these groups all the time, attacking their websites and taking them down. But, if you could get into contact with a Squirrel you could likely find yourself with free Dianetics training and Auditing. Here's one website http://www.freezoneamerica.org/ and another http://www.fzint.net/ and another http://www.freezoneearth.org You get the same training, the same Tech only without the fees and manipulation. Do your research and weigh up the pros and cons... One thing that Scientology does have right is that there are a lot of flaws to standard psychotherapy and psychology. A LOT of flaws. I prefer alternative therapies such as hypnotherapy and perhaps most interestingly NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming). I urge you to look at one of these three alternatives to the often unsettling practice of standard psychiatry before you give all your money to the even more unsettling organisation of the Church of Scientology.

cant help it
wow, this is cool. but i don't see anything on getting auditing for free. Just courses. Let me ask you this. Do you believe that the church really doesn't use the money or that it's not about money? Who gets the money? Do they want to help people? What has the organization become?

There are instructions on those websites on how to audit people or yourself for free. Also, if you were to get in touch with a Squirrel or one of the webmasters then it would be easy to set up free/much cheaper than Church auditing. If you search for it, you'll find it. Well to find out what the Church has become you need look no further than this: the guy said the Church is a "non profit organisation". This is not true, the Church is actually the opposite, it is registered as a Company in America. A profitmaking company. Where does most of the Church's money go? Well for a start you can bet that Miscavige is living in a fairly big house....the higher ups are rather rich people. Secondly, much of the Church's money goes into "outreach". In other words it's like a pyramid scheme - you give it money so it can spend the money on getting more people to give it money, whilst the bosses get richer and more powerful. Look at the Celebrity Centres..they're huge. The money to build these massive celebrity centres comes from the struggling scientologist, working at an Org just to get clear. Is it really all about the money? Well for a lot of the scientologists you'll meet it isn't - they sincerely believe that Scientology works and that their goal of clearing the planet is a good thing. Yet, the higher ups such as Miscavige know that whilst Scientology does work a lot of the time, it is not nearly as good as they say it is. Miscavige cared for Hubbard in his last days - eye witness reports say he was unwell, paranoid, unhygienic, taking large amounts of drugs and increasingly unruly. These are eye witness reports from people serving him. You can look them up if you want -ask me if you need any help. Miscavige was there. He saw him in the state he died in. Yet, he later claimed that Hubbard did not die, but merely ascended to a higher plane of existence in order to investigate new things. Miscavige is clearly not telling the truth about Hubbard and is misleading a large amount of people. Why else would he do this other than for personal gain? He has HUGE power as the leader of the organisation...a position that was by no means automatically his either, he fought several other potential successors for the place. The vast majority of Scientologists think they are doing a good thing. They see people like you who in some ways genuinely get better and assume that the Tech really must be all that they say it is, and so they give their lives to spreading Scientology around the world. Yet there is an elite of higher ups who could not possibly believe what they're saying to you - who are clearly in it for personal gain. A lot of people have gotten worse after following Hubbards advice on certain things. I have no doubt that Narconon works sometimes, and some of his teachings work sometimes, but a lot of them are bad for you. I would simply urge you to research everything they tell you by using the internet and stop giving the your money until you've properly researched them and decided if they are a good organisation and if what they are telling you is true or not. There are good aspects of Dianetics and bad aspects. Hubbard was right on some things and wrong on others - like any scientist! Test things for yourself, don't tie yourself to an organisation before deciding whether or not they're a genuinely good thing...Personally, I think the Church of Scientology is at it's core harmful but don't take my word for it - do the research.

dr
doctor shaden, how come you know so much about scientology?

I know a lot about Scientology because when I started to hear about it in the news and things I made sure I researched it. It's what I do - I don't judge things before I've heard two sides of a story. I read what Scientologists say about Scientology and I read what ex-Scientologists say about Scientology and weighed up what seemed truest. Both sides exaggerate,but it's not hard to make a reasonable judgment in the end...

It is very good that you give everything a fair chance.